It's that life altering love, the changing one, the long distance one. It's not like the love that's constantly surrounding you, it's the kind that. survives only by phone calls and short term trips. It's having someone fully understand you, a different kind of intimacy It's the kind that opens you, teaches you and tears you open. It's more vulnerable then everyday love. I've had that ex... The cheater, the womanizer, the nice guy gone bad, the one you thought would always be there Not all the same of course, but small pieces of each found in every one... Well it seams I've found all in one The one I thought would be different, but your just the same Told me pretty lies but they were just lies all the same I'm better without you, you let me down. your good at that, making people believe they are more important to you then they actually are. Was it hard, Letting go? Not as hard as holding onto to something that wasn't real. I des...
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I don`t think we`ve ever been completely honest with eachother.. So let me tell you all the things I`ve buried deep inside. For starters, I have never stopped loving you. You got distant, I got scared Maybe you were scared too. We were Young, maybe too young A very close friend asked me on average, how many times you cross my mind, Truth is, only once.. Because you never really left. But I`m scared. hell you terrify me. The idea of letting you get too close... Of you seeing the parts me I desperately want to hide.. Of you realising I`m not the one you wanted.. Of getting attached and you running. Maybe we`ll meet again one day, when your not so broken and I`m not so jealous. Maybe one day we`ll be right for each other and it won`t be so hard for you to love me I really hope that one day we`ll reconnect because no one has ever caught my heart in quite the same way.
Lately, you've been crossing my mind more often than not. I'm not sure what that space is between seconds is called, but your constantly there. Thinking back to it, I don't regret anything. The first time I laid eyes on you I knew, you would become someone important to me. And you are. I want you to know I wasn't always like this. I was cold, I still am. But you got under my skin, you caught me off guard. Instead of pushing you away I held you closer. I allowed myself to feel everything instead of dismissing every notion. So tell me pretty lies, Look me in the face Tell me that you love me Even if its fake, I have feelings for you, I act like i dont fucking care Like they ain``t even there, Cause Im so fucking scared.