Chapter One

Lets talk about a day in the life of a fairy. Daily adventures, life goals, a bucket list to complete all while trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do with my life. While my long term goal is/was to become a behavioral analyst, as the years go on I've become much more fascinated with writing and travelling.

What I really want to do is travel, write books, make art, drink wine and find someone who likes me enough to kiss my face. While I've done a bit of travelling, not nearly enough to satisfy myself and painting here and there, the urge to sell everything I own and just take off is becoming more and more alluring every day. 

Maybe its the weather or the past few months that have driven me to believe that maybe there is nothing left for me here. Maybe it's time to broaden my horizons and see what the world really has to offer. I'm in love with quotes and cities I've never seen. There are so many cultures and people i want to learn about and grow with. Alas, my dear sugar babies, I remain here, surrounded by my closest friends, working 2 jobs, taking a class that is - to put it lightly - ruining my life. While trying to understand why when the one person you want leaves, a silent alarm is triggered, like the bat signal, that alerts every ex boyfriend you've had since high school to immediately contact you. It's like when your super busy, running around doing 15 things at once while maintaining your composure and keeping a smile on your face, everyone and i mean EVERYONE from your grandmother to your bosses neighbor attempts to call you or text you, obviously with something that just cannot wait until later. But when you have nothing to do, your so bored your actually considering watching paint dry as an activity to amuse yourself even for a moment, everyone is busy, no one calls. Miraculous, amazes me every time.

Don't get me wrong I have nothing against my exes, I'm still friends with most of them, i remain on good terms after the breakup, just because the relationship didn't work out as a couple doesn't mean there bad people, were just not compatible emotionally.  I just don't understand why they all contact at once, its another one of life's mysteries, like black holes and why women fall in love with douche bags.

So to tackle one of my life's yearning wishes, i begin writing here. And since I can't find anyone who likes me enough to kiss my face, one to at least stay the season or peaks my interest, I'll just sit and wait. Perhaps let you bask in the amusement that is my past. It's not like I'm waiting for my knight in shinning armor to show up, truth be told I'd much rather have a dork in tinfoil. 

Amazing how life works, my trick is to always stay positive. Positive thoughts attract positive vibes which lead to positive people and events which in turn - I hope - will lead me on the path my life is meant to go. They say you can't move on to the next chapter if your still rereading the last one, and that when god shuts a door he opens a window. I do believe this is true, dwelling on the past never allows the future to bloom, but did he have to leave the last chapter on such a massive cliff hanger? And why did the window he opened have to be so high up and small. Maybe with time I'll grow taller and see the window is much bigger then it appears, showing the potential life i could have through the big shutters.

Psychology has always been my thing. The study of the mind, understanding why people do what they do, why they act they way the do and what they're constantly thinking of. Every day thoughts, like what a child feels like on the first day of school and if I felt the same. Or what a boy thinks when he falls in love, or a wife that has just learned she's been approved to adopt a child. People fascinate me, I've seen so little of the worlds cultures and the people inside them. Even living in one of the worlds most sought out cities, there's so much more I need to see. Ah, i need to travel, like my own personal Eat, Pray, Love journey, only mine will be explore, drink great wine and love journey. Teach English to people all over the world while exploring their countries and towns. 

Life as a fairy definitely has its perks, it's like I'm eternally happy, I see the best in every situation, I take the good with the bad, brush the bad off like a grain of salt. Life may be the longest thing we ever do, but it's way to short to be spent dwelling on anything negative. Whenever you feel sad, I want you to laugh, tell yourself a bad joke or think back to a happy memory and just laugh. Almost anything in the world can be cured with a good laugh and a long sleep.