I wrote this for you
The Words On A
Tombstone
Do practical things if
you want your tombstone to read
“They were practical.”
Do what makes sense if you think it should say
“Their life made sense.”
Do what the world wants if you believe in the epitaph
“They did what the world wanted them to do.”
But if you want it to read
“They
lived every second they were given
and
touched the sky every chance they had,
they
burned and blazed in all the colors the eye can see
and
left a hole shaped like them in the world
when
they left.”
Then do something else.
“That
being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you
and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. That the tingles
running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear,
constantly, if you choose to hear them. That everything you want to happen,
will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad
thought, you can think a happy one instead.”
And
when I asked you how you’d been, I meant I missed you more than I’ve ever missed
anything before.
“Your
salary is not love and your word is not love. Your clothes are not love and
holding hands is not love. Sex is not love and a kiss is not love. Long letters
are not love and a text is not love. Flowers are not love and a box of
chocolates is not love. Sunsets are not love and photographs are not love. The
stars are not love and a beach under the moonlight is not love. The smell of
someone else on your pillow is not love and the feeling of their skin touching
your skin is not love. Heart-shaped candy is not love and an overseas holiday
is not love. The truth is not love and winning an argument is not love. Warm
coffee isn’t love and cheap cards bought from stores are not love. Tears are
not love and laughter is not love. A head on a shoulder is not love and
messages written at the front of books given as gifts are not love. Apathy is
not love and numbness is not love. A pain in your chest is not love and
clenching your fist is not love. Rain is not love. Only you. Only you, are
love.”
“I
don’t care what people think. I fell in love with you. Not people.”
*******
“I’ve
tried to put you down on paper so many times. But you keep getting up.”
“And
when I’m far from home and I feel like an alien, trust me, somehow I never left
you.”
“Of
course it’s complicated. If it wasn’t, I probably wouldn’t be interested in
you.”
It is said it takes
seven years
to grow completely new skin cells. To think, this year I will grow
into a body you never will have touched.
*******
The problem, often not discovered until late in
life, is that when you look for things in life like love, meaning, motivation,
it implies they are sitting behind a tree or under a rock. The most successful
people in life recognize, that in life they create their own love, they
manufacture their own meaning, they generate their own motivation. For me, I am
driven by two main philosophies, know more today about the world than I knew
yesterday. And lessen the suffering of others. You’d be surprised how far that
gets you
*******
There are moments of such pure, sublime,
unparalleled perfection that they will force you to close your eyes and hold on
to them as best you can.
Life is a series of these moments. Everything else
is just waiting for them



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