Grimm Love

Old writings from long ago, thought i'd share :)


tragedy, accident, death. 
you can't help but look, 
imagine falling, the sidewalk just coming at you 
they say vertigo isn't the fear you'll fall. 
they say its the fear you'll jump 
because maybe deep down we all have that urge, 
to jump. 

what's natural is to wonder what separates us from them, 
what matters is what makes us the same 
do they have dreams at night, 
did they ever feel his fears lift off of them. 

I don't know what made me stay, 
something kept drawing me closer and closer, 
i had to see more. 

imagine such a perfect understanding, 
being with someone who sees you as you really are. 
who reflects your image back to you as something beautiful and pure. 
were you so afraid to be alone, 
was it his need to be whole that drove him or 
just his desire for flesh, to devour something dear, something only he would know. 
nobody ever really knew you did they? 

i have this dream sometimes, in this dream my life is smooth and ordered, purposeful. Everything has a reason, everything is in its place, and i am no longer afraid because somehow in this dream i left my old self behind.the compulsive note taker the eternal question asker, the girl who is searching for something to fill that dark hole inside her and quiet her lost, i left this behind to find something more, something pure, because i finally found what ive been searching for, because in this dream im not alone, someone else is there i can't see them yet but all of me is moving towards this person, the person is obscured but definitely there i feel all my fears beginning to lift off me like fog rising from a lake. and then i wake up. 

Is it wrong to want to find someone who can see inside of you into the darkest corners of your heart and still love you.

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